Can you sense the love?

Sreya: Shrutika you know its really sad that you talk about him so much without even knowing him
Shrutika: uh huh
Sreya: And you dont even wanna know him, you want to know what he has. if you know what i mean
Shrutika: Sreya i ALWAYS know what you mean
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Shrutika: Don't you just want to touch him all over?
Sreya: No
Shrutika: Why? Cause you got your own guy to touch
Sreya: YEAA
Shrutika: Slut, at least i dont act out what i think
Sreya: Yeah well thats not good...you should practice what you preach..
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Sreya: Dude, i do want to touch him all over


Shrutika: What are you doing?
Sreya: uhm. Who?
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Shrutika and I talk about boys. A LOT. And the first two thingos are about a certain gorgeous person. =P
Anyway, I think she's a little more than a little ticked off right now. 
I've known her since we were in nursery.. I didn't really like her much then.. Because whenever we played those mommy daddy whatsit games I was ALWAYS the kid. i wanted to be the mommy too! 
Oh, and in KG, she told me she'd give me chewing gum if i spelled 'soldier' right. Oh I spelled it right alright. But did I get my gum? Noooo. 
I doubt she even remembers this. =P


But I love her. Like I told her just 5 minutes ago, she's one of the very few people who can talk sense into me.. and she's one of the VERY few people I actually listen to.. She's crazy, she's insecure, she doubts herself sometimes.. and she's a lot like me sometimes.. She's just one of those people who never fail at making you feel good about yourself. She's gorgeous, though she doesn't believe it. 


You're a cool patooti, babe. =) I love you.


But i will never forgive you for ruining my Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban book. 

People persons person people PERSON!

Have you ever been really REALLY wrong about a person? I don't think you can ever really KNOW anyone. Everyone has a dual nature.. at least that's what I believe. But the thing that hurts me the most and pisses me off the most is how even your friends can disappoint you.. Say things that friends just aren't supposed to say, do things that they aren't supposed to do. Hell, the 'things' i'm talking about over here are things that no one should do. It's wrong, it hurts others. But I guess you can only know if you've been on the receiving end. But HELLOOO? There's a thing called a 'conscience'!

I'm in one of my crazy moody moods today, I have been since yesterday (pms makes me crazy). I wish I could control my moodiness, seriously, but I can't. I was talking to one of my best friends Anjali the other day (god, how I love that girl).. And we were in one of our really self deprecating moods.. I really wish I wasn't this insecure, I never would have been if THAT BOY hadn't entered my life and fucked with my head a year ago, I wish I wasn't this needy, I wish I didn't need so much reassurance.. I feel bad for Sargun (my boyfriend) sometimes.. He's been very patient with me, and I can't thank him enough. I've become more tolerant and I've definitely become happier since he's been with me. He's tolerated my screaming and crying, crazy mood swings, occasional (or not so occasional to him) stupidity. So.. Happy nine months, babe. I love you =)

I need to prove to Abhinandan that I don't "use people and throw them away like tissue paper". =/ I really like that boy. He doesn't judge me. Sure all the sexual jokes he cracks are usually always directed towards me, but hey, whatever. We used to have the most retarded conversations. I sort of miss him. He was always jealous coz I had bacon in my freezer or something... So we decided that after the boards (the 10th boards) were over, he'd come over and we'd have this huge breakfast cook off thing. Yeah.. that never happened.

Shrutika's coming over today =) Dishari is a tiny person. She got Prada boots. She's sucha cutie. =) I think Aashna is the best bat-up person in the world.

Yes, I am aware that his post is very strange.

Kung-Fu Koanda (Koala + Panda). Wait. No. Shit. Kung-Fu Polar Bear.

Have you ever noticed how HAPPY koalas are? And pandas? 

I'm sick of expecting so much out of people and getting disappointed over and over again with what I get. I know it's a horrible thing to say.. It's not like i WANT to expect a lot from people.. I just do.. I'm sure a lot of other people do as well.. Don't they?! 

I can't help but have expectations, I can't help but expect a perfect friendship, a perfect family, a perfect relationship, perfect friends... but you're almost always let down.. I've let down a lot of people too.. You know what though? I guess in the end, however much you want to, you can't ever really blame anyone but yourself. 

"I think the best way to lose something is by wanting it too much" - John Dorian - Scrubs. (Stolen from she who must not be named)

I can really really relate to that.. And I bet a lot of others can, too. 

Anyway, get back to the whole I-want-to-be-a-kung-fu-koala+panda thing. 

Koalas and pandas are so happy. They're fat and happy. I want to be fat and happy too. I want to climb trees and eat shitty plant food and have people look at me and say "awww how cute". Anyway. A koala+panda = Koanda. 

Now i was all happy, thinking I'd invented this whole new cool animal. But then this friend of mine (Pranam Abbi = Life Saver and anti-depressant pill in human form) did some googling and found out that a koanda is a real animal. And it isn't very cute. This is what a Koanda looks like : 

Not very cute is it?

So now I want to be a kung-fu Polar Bear.. because polar bears are all happy and fat and lazy and awesome and if anyone pisses me off I could just go all karate chop on them. :D

Yeah, I realise I sound like a retard. I just sort of feel like a very irritable grizzly right now. :|

Breathe me..

Help, I have done it again 
I have been here many times before 
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame 

Be my friend 
Hold me, wrap me up 
Unfold me 
I am small 
I'm needy 
Warm me up 
And breathe me 

Ouch I have lost myself again 
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found, 
Yeah I think that I might break 
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend 
Hold me, wrap me up 
Unfold me 
I am small 
I'm needy 
Warm me up 
And breathe me 

Be my friend 
Hold me, wrap me up 
Unfold me 
I am small 
I'm needy 
Warm me up 
And breathe me.


- 'Breathe Me' - Sia

Sweet like candy to my soul
sweet you rock and sweet you roll,
lost for you i'm so lost for you


Oh and you come crashhhh.. into me =) 


- Dave Matthews Band