There's this horrible thing that exists within all of us, it stop us from doing things we ought to do, it makes us selfish..
It's called an EGO.
I wish things were different.. Hell, I'm happy.. I'm REALLY happy. A year ago, I wouldn't have believed it if anyone had said that I could last in a relationship for more than 2 months. But now it's like Oh yeah I can totally do it. Don't get me wrong, relationships are hard, but thankfully I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world who (bless his soul) still loves me despite all my flaws.
But something's missing.. When is something not missing, right? I have the perfect boyfriend, the most amazing friends. But I'm still missing that one other friend, the missing piece of the puzzle. I wish I didn't care anymore, however cruel that might sound, I just don't want to hurt this much.
I wish I knew what to do, should I pick up the phone and call? That's where my ego comes in, it's hard to just shove it aside. It's going to be the death of me one day. I don't even know why I'm writing this, I just needed to get it all out.
Ehh. MLIA.
It's called an EGO.
I wish things were different.. Hell, I'm happy.. I'm REALLY happy. A year ago, I wouldn't have believed it if anyone had said that I could last in a relationship for more than 2 months. But now it's like Oh yeah I can totally do it. Don't get me wrong, relationships are hard, but thankfully I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world who (bless his soul) still loves me despite all my flaws.
But something's missing.. When is something not missing, right? I have the perfect boyfriend, the most amazing friends. But I'm still missing that one other friend, the missing piece of the puzzle. I wish I didn't care anymore, however cruel that might sound, I just don't want to hurt this much.
I wish I knew what to do, should I pick up the phone and call? That's where my ego comes in, it's hard to just shove it aside. It's going to be the death of me one day. I don't even know why I'm writing this, I just needed to get it all out.
Ehh. MLIA.
well that happens with me quite too freqently..the best thing to do then is to divert your mind to some other thing..i try listening to my fav songs,d ones which fit the situation aptly. :)
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