There's this horrible thing that exists within all of us, it stop us from doing things we ought to do, it makes us selfish..
It's called an EGO.
I wish things were different.. Hell, I'm happy.. I'm REALLY happy. A year ago, I wouldn't have believed it if anyone had said that I could last in a relationship for more than 2 months. But now it's like Oh yeah I can totally do it. Don't get me wrong, relationships are hard, but thankfully I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world who (bless his soul) still loves me despite all my flaws.
But something's missing.. When is something not missing, right? I have the perfect boyfriend, the most amazing friends. But I'm still missing that one other friend, the missing piece of the puzzle. I wish I didn't care anymore, however cruel that might sound, I just don't want to hurt this much.
I wish I knew what to do, should I pick up the phone and call? That's where my ego comes in, it's hard to just shove it aside. It's going to be the death of me one day. I don't even know why I'm writing this, I just needed to get it all out.
Ehh. MLIA.
It's called an EGO.
I wish things were different.. Hell, I'm happy.. I'm REALLY happy. A year ago, I wouldn't have believed it if anyone had said that I could last in a relationship for more than 2 months. But now it's like Oh yeah I can totally do it. Don't get me wrong, relationships are hard, but thankfully I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world who (bless his soul) still loves me despite all my flaws.
But something's missing.. When is something not missing, right? I have the perfect boyfriend, the most amazing friends. But I'm still missing that one other friend, the missing piece of the puzzle. I wish I didn't care anymore, however cruel that might sound, I just don't want to hurt this much.
I wish I knew what to do, should I pick up the phone and call? That's where my ego comes in, it's hard to just shove it aside. It's going to be the death of me one day. I don't even know why I'm writing this, I just needed to get it all out.
Ehh. MLIA.